Felt so near

First day of work at CGH, wooah everything was going on well till i felt dizzy. Damn this is like my fourth time. Everything turns black and you feel dizzy...n then you feel you want to vomit but nothing comes out. Your whole body is in cold sweat ..and u cant stand up. Luckily before i nearly fainted out i touched my Clinical Instructor's shoulder. She and one stuff nurse helped me down on a chair. & another stuff nurse bought some blood taking thingy and drew blood from my finger. Then i felt like vomiting , before my CI could bring a vomit bag i ran to the patients toilet which was just beside the chair i was sitting on. Nothing came out just felt like something gone. & i was drench in cold sweat. Rested in our staff room and later was alright. Later CI came and told me that the blood test showed my sugar level is low. & later on continued with work. Some parts you just like stand there and do nothing .. tempted to sit down ..Zzz . Made friends with one patient. Mine is a all male ward. Tmr also morning shift ..need wake up at 5am. okies toodles ;)

Dont break me like that..

Went to work at novotel on friday & yst went to work at Amara @ sentosa ...The new experience was good, still prefer novotel though ...cus i'm so used to the environment & ppl there. Saw some chinese celebrity too at the wedding banquet at amara ^^. Neways i'm like so bored thus posting on my blog. Tmr onwards attachment is gonna start.I tried on my uniform yst and i dont like what i saw on the mirror. Rawwr! Today is my haddi maya (shristi) 17th b'dae ..& we are like gonna go her house for dinner tonight ..teeheee.

Sometimes the way you say things really hurts my feelings, the words cut me. & sometimes i feel maybe if i hadnt told you the truth...everything would have been different. But no ..what happened has happened and i do not regret my actions ...Because even if i had'nt told you .. you would have gotten hurt sooner or later..I was only trying to protect you , i dint expect you to blame me. Maybe if i knew what i know today ..i would have think twice before telling you the truth.

First love is only a little foolishness & a lot of curiosity

Phone calls.

One day you will forget me, & i will end up hating you.

Ah tired, slept around 4am last night. These last few days havent have enough sleep, but thats okay i guess ..haha. Gonna get some rest & wake up at 5pm ... someone's teaching me to play the guitar at 5 ...Alrights , toodles

why?

Why does life have to be so dammmn complicated..? Even if you dont have any problems suddenly your love ones will have probs and then u start to worry and stuffs. I think i am sick & tired of life, thats how i am feeling right now. Like there are so many questions but no answers ..and u just gotta deal with it all on your own. Sucks that i am sensitive ...thus affecting me even more. You want to help but nothing you do solves the problem or anything .. and u stand there helpless looking at your friend suffer. I know i have a really negative mindset, but whats the point of having a positive mind when nothing is ever the way you want it. You will only get hurt as a result...!!

& you ... all i feel right now is anger. Everything's changed.

& i hope karma will bite u freaking hard!!