6 of us,

Um, break till 10 & i am alone in the mac canteen, Just finished my beehoon ..harip hungry from yst. Thought i would blog since i am so bored and someone's pestering me to blog. Hm yst after school went to watch Megamind. The evening was kinda fun ...enjoyed the taxi ride the most hahaha i think the whole taxi kept shaking due to someone's hilarious laughther and all the jokes about pairing us with the most embarrassing partner u could ever think of. haha okay lets stop about yst before i start to write out a compo. Neways today during lunch time performance, FB juniors are performing & my dear, sujan is also performing. The thing is that i will be having lecture, so i guess am gonna skip it. Haiz this semesters lecturers are terrible & i am also terrible cus i dont bother listening. Zzzz i have to maintain my last semester grades !! Barely have time to revise nowadays. I am getting lazy lazzzy laaazierrr!

It's the way you make me smile.

It's the way you always give in to my tantrums.

It's the way you never give up on me.

& mostly its the way you love me ..

...that makes me fall for you all over again

The finished talk, the past talk.

Dont know whats happening, it's like that one thing holding me back. why do you keep making me feel this way, how can you suddenly come back and remind me of the pain. You said you had your reasons ...but are you sure its not only for your own benefit. I waited so long . All your promises broke right infront of my eyes.No, i wont look back. Those months, days,nights were terrifying enough ...i have shed enough tears for you. But still the memories haunts me. Making me have doubts in everything ..Sometimes i hate myself for being like this.

you cut my heart so deep, the scars refuses to mend.

MAGIC.

Weekends just ended, spent my saturday having tuition in the morning and then afteroon watched hindi movie - Once upon a time in mumbai . Then in the evening went Charles & keith sale with himalee ..both of us bought the same bag ;). Ate at a indian restaurant and rushed back for my extra tuition at night ..Student's exam is coming so giving extra tution. Today morning went for lecture regarding the Lee award foundation, rushed back for tuition ...Then afternoon made 'nimkin' with mum, passed some to D. Then went sujan house for chatpatey, came back at 7plus for tution again. Umm, feel like the 'time of the month' is gonna come today ...can feel the symptoms. Arggggh me dont likes. Neways Gnight folks.

Love me this way forever, & i will be yours forever.

YOU

Just came back from js with baby,lax & mali. Tired after carrying anish all the way home! Neways its been 1 week since school started & i dont understand almost all the new lectures, ...Got some of the most boring teachers..Guess i have to depend on myself to read up all the notes, which i know i wont ..Its gonna be last minute studying again for my exams!! Hmmm i got a few hundreds now in my bank , & next week will be getting 1000bucks (study award)teeheee ....I can feel the money rolling in ;) Planning to buy a phone and dslr. I still dont know which phone i should get hmm... GTG for dinner , toodles :)

Dont know how i got lost,

Got lost in your eyes, your smile..your words & your love.

Is this right, will it be right? if i were to give you my everything

Cross my mind,

20ctober,

Nothing to do today, i'm bored. Going back to novotel tmr...$$$$ ;) On a side note i might be going both days for dashain party. The only problem is i only have 1 dress, i guess am gonna dig some dress from the wardrobe and wear it on the first day. Hmmm what else ...i feel like having momo ..not the ones mum and aunties makes, the ones at GK or shishmahal cus its like so much better and taste like the ones in nepal. yumyum am hungry now ...


Thinking about you, it makes me smile.
The way you make me feel,
The way you always try to make me happy
It's such a blessing that i have found you.

Disconnect,

F A D E

There's nothing much to blog so am just gonna complain about how life is being a bitch. Okay first of all ...i am broke ..yessh totally broke, i dont have any cent to my name ..i wish everyday was pay day -_-" . I have bought my dress for dashain, and now am having second thoughts. I saw just something on fb which is making me boil at 100degrees. My mouse sucks, it's irritating the shit out of me cus it keeps getting connected & d/c. Lunch was awful, no meat ..therefore only ate a few handful, and my stomach is growling now. Pimples are appearing every single second & dashain party is in a few days time, how great! I feel like i wanna change my number. I have been having weired bad dreams. I am getting moody easily even though its not the time of the month. I feel like eating alot and get fat. I feel like what i am writing isnt making any sense, so good day =)

Felt so near

First day of work at CGH, wooah everything was going on well till i felt dizzy. Damn this is like my fourth time. Everything turns black and you feel dizzy...n then you feel you want to vomit but nothing comes out. Your whole body is in cold sweat ..and u cant stand up. Luckily before i nearly fainted out i touched my Clinical Instructor's shoulder. She and one stuff nurse helped me down on a chair. & another stuff nurse bought some blood taking thingy and drew blood from my finger. Then i felt like vomiting , before my CI could bring a vomit bag i ran to the patients toilet which was just beside the chair i was sitting on. Nothing came out just felt like something gone. & i was drench in cold sweat. Rested in our staff room and later was alright. Later CI came and told me that the blood test showed my sugar level is low. & later on continued with work. Some parts you just like stand there and do nothing .. tempted to sit down ..Zzz . Made friends with one patient. Mine is a all male ward. Tmr also morning shift ..need wake up at 5am. okies toodles ;)

Dont break me like that..

Went to work at novotel on friday & yst went to work at Amara @ sentosa ...The new experience was good, still prefer novotel though ...cus i'm so used to the environment & ppl there. Saw some chinese celebrity too at the wedding banquet at amara ^^. Neways i'm like so bored thus posting on my blog. Tmr onwards attachment is gonna start.I tried on my uniform yst and i dont like what i saw on the mirror. Rawwr! Today is my haddi maya (shristi) 17th b'dae ..& we are like gonna go her house for dinner tonight ..teeheee.

Sometimes the way you say things really hurts my feelings, the words cut me. & sometimes i feel maybe if i hadnt told you the truth...everything would have been different. But no ..what happened has happened and i do not regret my actions ...Because even if i had'nt told you .. you would have gotten hurt sooner or later..I was only trying to protect you , i dint expect you to blame me. Maybe if i knew what i know today ..i would have think twice before telling you the truth.

First love is only a little foolishness & a lot of curiosity

Phone calls.

One day you will forget me, & i will end up hating you.

Ah tired, slept around 4am last night. These last few days havent have enough sleep, but thats okay i guess ..haha. Gonna get some rest & wake up at 5pm ... someone's teaching me to play the guitar at 5 ...Alrights , toodles

why?

Why does life have to be so dammmn complicated..? Even if you dont have any problems suddenly your love ones will have probs and then u start to worry and stuffs. I think i am sick & tired of life, thats how i am feeling right now. Like there are so many questions but no answers ..and u just gotta deal with it all on your own. Sucks that i am sensitive ...thus affecting me even more. You want to help but nothing you do solves the problem or anything .. and u stand there helpless looking at your friend suffer. I know i have a really negative mindset, but whats the point of having a positive mind when nothing is ever the way you want it. You will only get hurt as a result...!!

& you ... all i feel right now is anger. Everything's changed.

& i hope karma will bite u freaking hard!!

I think you are niceee

I dunnoe why i am even using the lappie when my exam is around the corner, On monday have psychology ...like wtf. I just dont know why i cant concentrate, I can open up the book and stare at it for a few mins ...then my mind start's day dreaming and thinking about nonsensical stuff and thats how my time flies ... Whats happening to me..! Grrrrr .... On a side note i bought a pink bag (JLO) and britney's perfume .....hehe! ...

Promise in the dark,

Watched shutter during our break. Shit, i scremed in the library and everyone was staring at our gang -_-. YOG rehearsal today was kinda lame, got samsung blue shirt to wear for the event tmr. Hope to enjoy tmr ...cus after YOG event ...There is gonna be a dance party with some DJ ( Dunnoe the name) ; ) .. Met lax, mali, nilu & sujan for 'hawa khane' .Eating Kitkat chunky , chocolate flavour. Teehee , nights folks

Fearless,

Made hotdog momo with lax & kali today at my crib ... ;)

So class was from 8 to 10 today ..Then later found out have bio tutorial at 1. So had 3 hours break ...in the end when i went for the class, the tutor dint even came. Like WTF.

Wonderful,

Yesterday

- Me, sujan and dipa were waiting for shristi ...it was kinda windy. & there infront of us there was this woman standing for quite a while(i think lecturer) facing her back to us. I was looking at her back view when suddenly her dress flew up, showing her undies ...i was like OMFG!. I told jan about it and even told her i am going to keep looking. Funny enough the dress flew up again ....i laughed my head off ...just when i stopped laughing it flew again. It dint even looked obscene, it was well just SO FUNNY. Hahah...I bet the woman dint know her dress was flying.. Then later after shristi came , we went to AMK hub ..On way by the train, a girl was infront of us (talking on her phone) ..suddenly her slipper got stuck in btw the doors and the hole, ..she tried to move but the slippers went inside the hole (railway) .. Damn freaking paiseh lah, Later on we headed to Popeyes for lunch...

Today

- School ended at 1 ... Watched some performances at the atrium with jan. Free coca-cola were given to eveyone .It's for the YOG event happening this saturday at NYP(pre-performances). Gonna attend it this saturday though i dunnot what we are gonna do , just signed up. Met shristi.Went AMK hub again ... Later at 6plus went jogging with the 2. I was telling shris and jan that GCpeople are laughing at us ..'thinking why those 3 haddis jogging.' ... Neways we finished bartley round in less than 30mins, quite good cus havent gone jogging for ages!

* on a side note, i met S today. LOL , i saw S in my dream last night and taah daah , i met him after so long today. Weired weired dreams. A few of my dreams this year has come true... its like i dream about it at night and then on that day the event happens or i meet the person.

Just when i say i am over you, why do you somehow interfere in my life. But this time, i wont let you change my mind. Sometimes i wish you would just ........'disappear'. Cus we will never be the same again.

Pink skies, orange clouds,

Just came back from binu's crib, we made puri & alu dom for dinner. Was fun as always. jokes n stuffs. The weather is cold and its making me sleepy ..I have yet to revise for GSM test tmr, arrrghhhh! .Ciao.

Looking for Alibrandi

Spent my saturday ..having tuition in the morning. & reading a novel which i borrowed from sabi, just finished a few hours ago. Gotta say the last part was really heart breaking. It's about a girl whose seventeen and her life. It somehow inspired me cus i somehow can relate to it, get what i mean? AAAhh on monday i'm having GSM exam ...and i have yet to look at the lecture notes, who was the one saying she will try her best to get the directors recommendation letter, Yes it was me. & i am doing nothing but shit about it. Urmila pun! wake up (literally) cus am gonna sleep now. Yawn ..nitez folks.

I thought you were more then that.

Hmm the week is ending soon. Another one more week & it holidays, teehee. Hmm went out during break on tuesday. Had pizzahut with 3 of my fav ppl. Today haddi went out for lunch with ... haha, wah go in car somemore. No plans to go fbodz this week cus of periods, Dont think i'm gonna attend fbodz anymore (elaborate more next time). Now i am like so sleepy, had class at 8 today (was late!)....Tmr at 9. I am excited for attachment to start though there is like more than a month. Sokoh.. haddi & renu's attachment on August. Damn, my FB not working ...


It hurts knowing you were not the person you appeared to be.
It breaks me down,
But then, i realise i deserve better .... way better.
& one day, you will regret ..but i wont be there.

Like a melody,

Birthday girl


HAHA! The pic says it all

Yesterday was my dear Lax's b'dae. We went out around 6pm ..and roamed around orchard & dined at pizzahut @ plaza sing. Did a surprise @ starbucks, Thanz babe for the treat(s). Then today Himalee treated us at GurkhaKitchen today, ate alot. Teehee thank you Himalee maiju. In other words spent the whole weekends with BLUSH. =D

Me himalee and binu first attachment is at Changi general hospital from 13sept for 3 weeks . Got my posting shedule, Himalee & me are in the same ward. But the F part is that we are on diff shifts, well except for the first day. Himalee & binu got diff ward but same shift times, Uff.! The other girls are at either TTSH or SGH. Except shristi same as us at CGS ..But since she is from diff lecture group , her attachments are around august. Haiz!

I want to buy alot of stuffs, As soon as i get my tuition fees am heading to NewLook & forever21. I need clothes and footwears. My wardrobes are so full that i keep some clothes in their shopping bags. But then everytime i wan to go out, all the clothes seems so little.How ironic. Hmph.

Too much to handle

It's hard to be the one who stays.

Everything seems simple until you think about it

Finally done with all my ICA. Had critical thiking theory test tdy , think it was okay. Ummm what's more. Oh yea i have BIO practical test this friday , i have yet to study for it. Hm & FBOZ practice later on that evening. Haiz still deciding if i should stay put in the club or not. Cause i really wanna join soundcard (singing club). AAAAAAAAAHHHH ....maybe next year i will try the audition for it.

Borrowed 'The time traveler's wife' ....its quite interesting ( so far anyway i hope i dont give up halfway) I miss the old times where i would stay up all night to read storybooks. Nowdays all i do is use the laptop ... Tmr lecture from 3 to 4, still unsure whether to go for it or not ...who wants to go to school for 1 hour only. Maybe go earlier with sujan and study for BIO ...hmmm sounds better.

Tired, literally. Mentally.

Haven't you heard, Once broken considered sold.

I have always been this way.I would never pretend to like someone i don't, I am the type who rather have few friends whom i can trust rather then just a bunch of people who u call 'friends' but not even being treated like one. I would always keep a distance from people i am uncomfortable with, Cus i cant pretend that way!I know who are true to me that is why we are able to be friends for so long cus we accept each other for who we are and we dont backstab each other like the other girls we know. That's why i/we rare-ly have cases of quarrels. well FFF i am feeling alot of feelings but just dont know how to get it into words ......


Had family outing today after like sooooooooooo long. Dine-ed at swensen , yum yum. Later on ..roamed around marina bay. Now am so tired & sleepy ..but my itchy hands decided to open my lappie. Okies, goodnight all!

& yeaaah i got my tuition fees today. Hmmm who do i owe money to? * hands up. keke

why cry?

Dead tired from Fbodz practice tdy. I dunnoe why during practice, i get like seriously stressed out ...maybe its cus after every practice, we need to showcase infront all the Fbodz peeps. Then after showcase, feel like 'whoah that was all, i did it'. Our Seniors are always there motivaing us, to not give up..! Everyone of us are improving after each lesson. Ahh, going be 1am ..tution tmr morning, Nitez peeps. Tmr going outing at ecp for sanisa farewell ..

fade away,

Had group meeting for my gsm(finance) its due on monday ...yeah basically we are doing last minute work. Himalee is in the same group as me. So we spent our saturday from 1 to around 6.30pm at school doing the project ...okay lets be truthful, we dint do much work. ...ahh wanted to post about tdy but now i am on skype with anjali & sujan .Yipeeee so off i go ..shall continue another day keke its so fun talking with the girls ....gossiping i mean haha! so if u keep sneezing dont blame us. ;P

slowly leting you go ....little by little

Currently at the cafe library again.with kali & shasha. Had lesson at 9 till 10am. & thought had lecture at 4 again...but later found out it was electure so no need to go. Imagine having 6 hours break. Tmr have work at 1pm , tuition at 10am as usual ...Have to take the tuition kids during june holidays for movie since i promised them i will treat them if they improve on their MYE. Working whole day till 11pm or maybe doing OT. I need money, i am like so broke. & there is like a mini ex bartleyeans outing this sunday ...Plan for this sunday is to go out for movie & have dinner @ nepali restaurant ..Gonna buy somethings for anju since her sis is going back to nepal soon. i can see my money flying away. Should be heading home now ..its gonna be 2 already ...how fast 4 hours pass alrd ..eating n sitting ..not shitting lah SITTING. okay i'm being so lame. com. Projects are piling up ...omg so next week have communication ICA ...and the other week after next week have 2 ICA presentation ..Zzz I have to work on my psychology ICA ..since my group like divided the work .. Haizz Okies Toodles..





you felt so near, that i thought i could touch you

Timeless,

wrapped around the 'shawl'
it feels so warm, feels like you holding me
.....just wanna stay like this tonight
as the memories floods back ... with your warmth..

Little & little..

oh yea continuing of what happen on my birthday ..since i have time now, school is over now at 1pm woohoooo ....just relaxing at cafe now ..Gonna head back home with kali ..while the rest still have lessons BOOO! haha

so yea where was i? hmmm yea so i celebrated with my classmates ...then later i was at the cafe waiting for the my friends to finish their lesson...when i got a call from my classmate that there is a group meeting ...so headed to south wing library at the last corner ...After some time dipa phoned me and asked where i was ,.so i said south library come to the back ...then she was like huh? where i donnoe... u come outside library lah ...so i was kinda pissed lah ..and went out to the starting point of south wing she wasnt there so i just headed out ..then at the same time the whole gang (dipa, sujan,himalee,binu,shristi,shashi,frihat) were there with this huge paper pasted "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO URMI" card ...with all of them carrying heart shaped balloons ...& i was like ouh-oh ...haha was shocked a little( cus i did suspect a lil when dipa phoned me, but i tot they would be outside library with birthday cake" )haha ...then i walked in front them to get my bag which was on the other side of the library ...i walked all the way behind with them following me...and one of them holding the card up .. everyone was giving us the stares ..lols ...so when i went to get my bag ...all of them wanted to sing a birthday song ..so they did a soft HBD song ... then they ask me to turn the card around....i was like WOAAAH ...our photos was pasted all over with cut captions ...then someone i think shashi siad why never cry ..and everyone laughed ...& then yea ...haha i tear-ed down ... so i thought that was the end but noo


at night , around 830om i decided to take a nap cus i was like kinda exhausted from the whole day. I was asleep when i heard loud ' HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U" song ....i immediately ran to the door ...& there they were with a birthday cake ...haha .. so while cutting the cake i wanted to change out from my night gown. ..but those evil kukurnis never let me change ..wanna so saram me... & later i ordered pizza ...

SEVENTEEN

Woke up at 9. Got ready. Wore the dress i bought for myself as a present. Then rushed. Met my sis and her friends at everst side. All of them shouted " happy birthday" ...haha thank u cuties. Went amk hub, & rampit i got ..er lost. Zzz i will never travel to a place which i am unfamiliar with. In the end found Polar ..and bought black forest cake. It was alrd 11am. So got late for my lecture ....damn paiseh to walk in the lecture room when the lecturer is teaching. After lecture, i went out and my classmates were singing bdae song for me ....celebrated with them at mac. Thats it so far. my dumbi friends are missing in action. M alone in the library cafe ...WAITING for them. My bdae make me wait saleh haruuu. But i also dun noe why am waiting. Cus i wanted to buy 2 cakes ...one with my classmates one with friends. But in the end bought only for classmates cus of .......so much to say...time constrain late for lecture ..some say think cannt make it.... ouf Oh well, thats how my bdae is going on so far.

Come back in my dreams.

i was searching for my phone. Then i look inside my bag...it was there -_-. Think i kept it there unknowingly while i was packing my stuffs for sch. Argh tmr is the foreign dance audition .....my friends are like going and nagging me to come too ....i have 0 knowledge on dancing while they ateend dance classes. sujan, shashi n himalee pro. While me n shristi (haddi) are like clueless. Haiya maybe just try out lah ....wont hurt. i dunnoe why i am still awake ....class starts at 8 and i am suppose to wake up at 630. haiz hope wont get late like last week . off to la la land =D

that look could kill

At cafe again, having 3 hours break. Sitting at the couches ....and ahhh right across me is a freaking hot guy ....suddenly dhoom tana dhoom tana is playing haha ...he is wearing a beanie and is prolly the cutest guy i have seen in Nyp . Oh well i said i wouldnt look at guys from now on. Keke okay friends relax all guys are my bhena till my birthday ends. Argh got group meeting tatas

Nothing is just nothing

At cafe with himakali. Hm deciding if i should eat cookies or not. Moti dun wanna eat ath. okay right after i worte the previous sentence. She says wanna eat chicken pie. Keke. I want the big chocolate chip ...am off to buy cookies for me n chicken pie for mali.

BACK. & Just finished my cookie. like so fast. Next time i bake at home and bring. Ouf okay lame post cuz i am bored. Toodles ;)

How could you give me the world & take it back?

Spent my weekend just teaching tuition in the morning ...and in the afternoon watching hindi movies . Now got channels showing for free ...so after one movie finish change channel watch another one. Lazy cus its the time of the month ...and when it happens i just like to sit n sit all day. Haiz other girls complain cus of irregularity while its vice versa for me. Well at least it proves one thing , i am healthy!!! Mother's day is coming ....dunnoe what to give her ...i spent more than 200bucks for her birthday and rebonding her hair this year. Really busy nowadays dun even have time to buy prepaid card ...lucky dad bought for me this morning. Oh yeah turning SEVENTEEN on the 12th. As i get older i get less excited to celebrate my bdae. Blah ...still have to wait 1 more year to go clubbing.

Uff, why got sch tmr?? bloody ....all primary secondary schools no school. NOT fair.



, but it doesn't really hurt. it's just a sad thought that makes the thread that tightly closes my heart ...just loosen a lil bit and shows a glimpse of my wound.

i wish i wish...

School was at 9 yst. Me n haddi went by Circle line...it's so much faster than the bus. i felt ...umm......paiseh cus i was actually early (or rather on time) for school ...damn on thursday i reached 30minutes late for my Lab class Zzzz. If late then 10 minutes marked as absent. If 15% absent then barred from exam...like this how to survive! Neways my first lesson was tutorial ....and the next one was suppose to be lab for Bio ...i dintnoe that it was elearning ,....so in the end we had 4 hours break. Went amk hub with my friends from class. farhana, fatin & nathasha. All 3 of them are malay. Luckily i can understand alil of malay. we shopped for fatin's sport shoes then later went popeye(right spelling?) for lunch ....neways i dint know it was a fast food restaurant like kfc.. Okay i dint even know it existed ....they said there are like only 4 outlets in Sg.The chicken is nice but i still prefer Kfc. But gotta say the fries are like yummy!! ....later at school met up with the gang and went for lecture.

was just looking at my books. Haiz seems tough. But well, i gotta survive. I know i can do it. The textbooks are expensive ...guess gonna use my own money. 2 books only cost around 140plus..*faints. I need money. i wish money grew on trees.

urrrrrrr mi la

There goes my chance of learning chinese, The registration opened today at 7pm till thursday. And at 7.16pm shristiHaddi's classmate smsed her that there is no more vacancy for all languages( chinese, malay,japanese,french). It was a huge disadvantage to me n those whose classes ended late. Come on i was on the way home on the bus at that time ...next time buses should also install wireless internet ok. In the end me and my friends took fiance except bintu who accidentally clicked something about maintaining good etiquette haha. Yuppie tmr school starts at 11.10 for me & mali. Can sleep alil more....poor haddi class start at 8. Tmr is the audition for the soundcard ...n the song we have to sing in the audition is like so -_-" .....so i guess me n haddi wont be going for the audition afterall. Anish is ill again. Its sad to see him being sick every month or so. Just this month he was hospitalized .....and now he is sick again. It hurts to see your love one suffering ...and he is still a baby ..haiz ...i rather him be annoying me all over then having to get ill. Goodnights.

The moon, it bring so much emotions to me.

& at some point it does bring back your presence.

take the gift & dont ask why

In nyp library now, south wing. With shristiHaddi, jan and moti mali. Only 19 minutes left before tutorial again. Argghh today ending so late, at 6pm. Yeah got my student card today .....like finally! I was the last to get among my friends cuz of probs with my birth certificate. M HUNGRY now....had a sucky lunch at the canteen inside mac. Koufu canteen had all the tables packed!!. Some people "chop" their places with their waterbottle n student card ...Like so typical KIASU singaporean. Gonna take up chinese language for my GMS. Hope i get it since there is a limit to the number of students who can enrol. Neways ciao.

remember me this way,

Okay , so i rebond my hair today .. looks okay ...since i cant say look good also cuz not the great ..cant say not nice also its injustice to my hair. hehe. Finaly done with one week of poly life ....its tiring yet fun at the same time. So i took audition for smth ...& its on wednesday. Ah so just now ...i was singing then after the song finished ...suddenly someone from downstairs shouted wooahh and clapped. i was so embarrassed ...my first reaction was to run to my living room. I think i know who he is though...his voice sounded so familar.. UFF. I still have to wake up early during weekends to teach tuition. I teach them at my home (i mentioned before its at the students home) . Neways tatas

Someone to love you with all his heart hard is difficult to find.

Should there be someone like that,

he's the one for you, be sure.

His hand ..you must take.

For all you know , tomorrow might never be.

Dont suffocate me..

went out to marina barage for picnic with ten of my babes ( sabi, lax, Binu, mali, shristi,sujan,ras,nilu,sandy & sujan). Ahh was a great day despite the bad weather ( constanly drizziling) anyway we settle down on a shealthered place. Cam whored, played games, Ate loads of good food, softdrinks & a small bottle of wine. Most of the girls dint drank much ....seemed like only me, ras, lax & sujan were the ones drinking quite alot more then we needed to Hehe! & yea i felt high .....haha i giggled at myself ..did silly things and had an intense desire to dance ..Ahh ...luckily i was still conscious and controlled myself. Sujan and i were a lil lose ...either the alchol took over or we just r crazy when we are together. Now am gonna lay down on my bed ..play my lappie and eat my potato chips!!

Down to earth.

Enrolment for poly is so troublesome. Was planning to go nepal but guess the plan failed. So much things to handle here and there. Zzz. Finally poly gonna start ....woohoo haha ...now excited later when the stress hits me i am gonna complain. Nth much to say ..time flies so fast. Whenever i am with himalee cristie dipa and sujan ...i turn crazy.. like really crazy ... Sheesh haha dancing on the road , marching and shouting left left left right left. Playing catching on the road back home...if its not crazy then what's it? N oh i realize i can barely run a few metres ...i was out of breath in just one minute ...oouf gone are the old days when all my softball team members would call me the "hawa thanne kti" cuz wen i used to run it was like i was pulling the air. FAT LOL. Neways going js later with those girls again. I donnoe whats in store hahaha so many crazy things happen when we are together. Ciao babes.

Photographs.

Valentine wasnt bad. How could it be? with my 7 sexy crazy friends. ( Sabina, himalee, sujan,nilu,shristi,dipa, shashi). Had a fun time together till midnight. Ordered pizza , Kfc.
Life is going on fine ...but i am soooo dying to shop since i dunnoe when.
I was looking at ipod's on the net yesterday cuz lax was planning to buy one ...some hour later lax phoned me and guess what?? she bought an IPOD TOUCH. hahaha we are'nt bestfriends for nothing ..Almost all the times we think or say the same stuff at the SAME time. Haha and now i want to buy one too! Can use net, listen music , watch movies. So it guess its a NEED not a WANT. Cuz when i take long bus rides i can watch vedios and stuff.

Oh, and i was bridesmaid for ramri didi wedding/engagement. Tehehe got a handsome amount of money for being the bridesmaid. The pictures are fab ...n most of all i enjoyed every single moment of it. Maybe i will upload some of the pictures in the next post.

i am teaching tuition in the mornings nowadays. 4 crazy pre nusery kids ..can really get on my nerves sometimes but nevertheless sweet at the same time. After i start poly . am not goona teach them. No time
But on weekends am tutoring 2 primary 4 kids. Tutoring them this whole year, provided they dont quit or rather i quit. Hahah .. i have to go their house to teach at 10am! uff ..less sleep but i guess the money they pay is worth it. LOL
Wondering why i never posted about my part time work ...cuz there are lesser function these days ..so dont have much work also ..haiz

M going shopping soon ...CYA ;)

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If you don't understand my silence then you will never understand my words..

CHANGED.

Just baked chocolate chip cookies & its yummylicious ( if there is such a word). This week no work so just sitting around at home. Have to go clinic everyday to change my dressing but the last 2 days i dint go cuz i was lazy to go. Neways i got that bloody cut when i was working...i drop the lazy susan on my right foot and it landed right on the middle causing it to be so swollen and then some of the glasses flew and cut a nicely shaped O on my right leg, just slightly above the knee. I could barely walk back from the main gate to my house...took a total of 30 minutes. But my dearest himalee was by my side thru that whole time...carrying my hand .etc. Not to forget sujan shristi too. That sujan was cracking a lame joke by saying " urmila u are lame now" -_-"



All the people at work helped me too. Pooja di is a nurse so she helped me with the first aid.

i like work cus there are alot of good friends there =D.



Munching on the cookies...yum!



hmm valentine is also coming, seems like i dont have date this year haha so i guess i am going to work since Cny & Vday falls on the same day. So i rather go to work and earn the extra money. One hour -10 dollars ;) since it's public holiday. It sounds so pathetic. ....hmm atleast i wont be rotting at home on Vday. i shall pamper myself by buying something. Hmph no fair! all the girls getting roses. hmph hmph hmph!! i sound like a whining bit*h okay i am done here.

Off

Cuz its only when you are near i know you understand. i am tired of this game. Now you are so far away. In this on/off relationship. we have been going in circles. This is the time to say Goodbye. Lets see when you come back.

My dear & near friend. ILy & IMy.

Been going to work since last friday till monday...wake up at 11 go to work come back at 1+am. Its quite fun working with friends and stuffs at the hotel. I was so busy or wadeva u call it that i dint even realise my lil sis went for her P5 camping today.-_-" . Yst went out with himalee ..met up with lax and we went mustafa. Came back to Gc then i went out again. Catched "The spy next door". & Now i am really bored ..luckily have bhoj to chat with. i am really hungry too. French fries to the rescue!

Cuz baby, you are a stranger.

Wohoo finally done with olevel results...!! hehe am not gonna tell my points..hmm a lil hint? I got my target point. Although after seeing the results, i tot could have done better haha. Um now it's time to prepare for my poly life. Which means new clothes in the wardrobe and new stuffs like ..laptop ..and maybe an iphone. So gonna work extra hard till poly starts and earn more $$$$$. Neways after some thoughts ...i joined nursing course since the sg govt wont let us (gurkhas childrens) work here after our dad retire. So after studying here can go overseas where jobs like nursing is more readily available .blah blah blah haiya dun wan explain... screw people who think nursing is a bad job. Make me have to explain.

Neways me himalee & sujan went out tdy. catched "Pyaar Impossible". was a sweet love story ....was good but not like Wow kind of good.

Have to wake up early at 11 tmr. work is at 1. ufff Gone is my sleep but if i wanna make That laptop mine ..then i guess its worth it? yeah

Love doesnt walk away, people does.

Going work today, sujan also joined the hotel on thursday. So me himalee sujan and shristi are going work from today onwards. Shall go to the libary tmr, i feel so bored without my books.

Cross paths.

Last night i vomited, yucks. Vomiting has never been my kind of thing ..from a child till now i have only vomited like maybe 4 times..? It so "amilo" and damn damn damn yucky. Yesterday afternoon i watched New moon ...it was awesome!! Uff i wanted to watch it in cinema but one of my friend said its boring so dint watched it ...But to me every part was anything but boring! Maybe cus of the atmosphere difference...i was lying down and watching on the big screen alone. while she/he (my friend) was out with the opposite sex. & today afternoon i watched Love phobia which had a sad ending. Boo to sad endings! & oh yea ...i finished the previous book i was reading and another one by Louise Bagshawe- when she was bad. ..i prefer the 'when she was bad' book ..it was just so addictive! Now no more storybooks ..so need to run to the library soon if not i will get my brain sucked by having nothing to do. Both the cd's are sujan's ..she bought alot of cds from nepal. & anju said she is sending me some cds too tehehe.

In my memory,

It dawn on me i miss my "the Three of you" besties.

i remember all the stupid pranks we used to play.
compare whose nose was bigger (although anjali's always won)
Talk about guys
Fight over stupid things like who is fatter ( none of us wanted to admit who was more skinny)
Fight over who the new handsome teacher liked most

those times we cried infront of each other, laughed till i nearly pee-d, being sarcastic, sujan always hitting me, or simply going to the toilet like for the zillion time, being kicked out of school for a day,getting scolded by the libarian and almost every teacher that taught us, trying to come up with some inspiring quotes, playing stupid games on the Mrt which still embaress me like hell, getting anxious for our exams results, sharing our darkest secrets,our last goodbye at the airport, our last group hug, I miss Everything.
It was with you guys when i wouldnt care about how childish i was cus i liked it when we behaved like that.We could shout in the middle of the road and not care two hoot about what others said.All this meant so much, cus you guys made a difference in my life. You 2 stood there for me through out everything. & deep down my heart i know we will always be one. ( "The three of you" ) despite the distance that cross over oceans.

With every heartache, it will make you stronger.

Results are going to be out next week!! I feel scared for a while then *poof it goes again. & then when i remeber about the results i get jittery again. Damn me for not studying hard enough! I hope someone lose the olevel results or delay the date!! * cross finger i hope i did well. If only i had done my olvels after i made my goal. Unlucky me, only after doing my olevels somethings happened n i realised what to do in my life. UFF!! But anyway i will work hard for this 3 years and then SOOOOOF i will go to _____a. ( cant say where wait people will have evil eye on me). & i am so bored i told mum i will wash lil dude's clothes. I know you dont believe it. But i have change for the better ...becoming cinderella...washing, cleaning, cooking thats nothing new to me now. All this is thanks to "BOREDOM" & i dont feel like going work that much also ..so most prolly this week i will stay at home. Today's highlight- going to meet sujan with dipa ..that girl lost her hp no wonder cant contact me ever since she came back from nepal. So ciao bored people, i figure out bored people like to read blogs like me so u must be bored since u r hopping from blog to blog. Continue "hopping" it will buy some time.

Dumb fairytale.

Was sleeping till 12.30pm like Sleeping beauty cause there wasnt noise from outside yeeeaah all the kids at school. Good for them..! when i open my room door i felt like Alice in wonderland ..i open my parents room ..open all the closed doors and realise i was alone at home. I decided to be Cinderella and did housework. Later got a call from dad ..telling me that they(parents) & bro are at the hospital and to buy lunch from js. Feeling like a brave warrior i went alone to js for the third time in my life. Bought lunch & some stuffs. While buying food saw one of the guy who bothered me in the past. so i decided to be Miss invisible and silently went away before he saw me. Rushed back home cus it was drizzling a lil. when i reached home sila was already back from school ..& later baby also came. Then we 3 ate lunch and watched Fullhouse on Kbs. It feels so good just the 3 of us growing up so fast and sharing a bond that no one can break. Then i thought for a while maybe i will change my mindset of having only 1 child. But oh well! Baked chocolate cake, which wasnt very nice. I made from the mixture but it was'nt nice. Ate Mcspicy which dad bought for us. Dont remember it being that spicy, i felt like my whole body was on fire. ...& ohh i finished the book about the vampires. Starting on a new one by danielle steel- Toxic bachelors. So far it isnt that good but isnt that bad either. Cause only vampires & other fantasy stories excites me ...romance book are getting a lil boring for me. Did i urmila the romantic just said that? Lax must be uggh??

Neways thats all ..was so bored so decided to excite myself by writing this

I got no respect for guys who ask me for my email add/contact number n write me cheeky msg even tho they have girlfriends. I hate unfaithful bastards....& surely u wont want me to tell this to ur girlfriend..?

New year resolutions.

so here goes the short list.

1) No matter which course i go into, i will study hard and work hard. Which will follow up to number 2

2)Work towards my goal .. (secret)


3) Be happy


4 )Earn more money & try to spend less ...okay cancel the "try" i really need to spend less..! cause if i wanna be happy(refer to 3) i must have money. ...wah u mean u poor u happy meh! cannot buy this & that. ew i sound like one of those superficial bitches. Just try to get the idea that money does makes u happy even if it is temp only. if u dont think so that u are dumb.


5)Gain some weight.


6) Learn to open up with other people. Cuz no way will i survive in poly if i dont interect with all the diff races.


7) Be more paitent with dumb people.


8) Hang out with cute guys - nah kidding!


9) Turn into a vampire/werewolf when i reach 17. anything with power!! (fat chance but wont it be so freaking cool so dont try to get on my bad side for all u know i might "rawr" u) ....circle of day break.. wild powers..these books are turning me physco

10) Dont trust Just anyone..!

Learn from the mistakes in 2009.

there is more but it only involves you, the one who left my heart broken into pieces.

Happy new year!! 2010

Gonna sleep for an hour then off to work..! Will update later on my new year resolutions. My latest obbession..books on vampires. werewolves..thrills me to the bone yeaah! Ciao